yeah, i removed some posts

they didn't seem appropriate, even if i do support my thoughts in them.


but anyway

here's a dream thing

i'm in a city, but not my city.  i go "home", but an ex is there.  she's all super bitchy and angry and stuff, and talks about all the people in my life she's had sex with to spite me.  somehow that devolves into us in bed. kissing.  like whoa kissing.  the kind of kissing that makes you half wake up, and snuggle up to some blankets and pillows, you know?

and then everything is all better again?

but she has kids now, so i take them to the grocery store.  one of them (a boy?) wants some candy, but only in cherry.  cherry's out, so i give him strawberry, and lie that it's totally cherry.  little kids are dumb, so he believes me.  yay?

somehow i walk home, but now my ex is like a 1970s sterotypical exploitation movie black girl, with afro and everything.  she tried to kill herself, but the kids are there (but way younger).

so this.

this is way beyond anything i know how to rationalize.  the ex thing, ok. i get that.  the everything else though....

dear brain, stop being dumb, love, sammy!

another dream

i'm... suburbs?

anyway, his daughter is a lesbian, and is rebelling against him.  he's upset about this, and i seem to be the target of his anger.  maybe it's because he thinks i'm turning her?  she's too young, it's not ok to do that.  maybe it's just anxiety about my own family here?

days pass.  it's all ok.

i'm thirsty now, so i look down in the garden.

there's a fairy, and she's got a catheter so i can drink from her.

because this is my dream, and in my dream, you can totally suck the piss from a tiny pixie.

but then i see this device.  it talks to me in japanese, and i can just piece together the words.  it tells me that it's available for just 19.99! it's a bargain!

so i get infomercials in my dreams now?


 but it's a feeder for when you're on  vacation, but don't want your pet to die.

it tells me that it accepts urine as a source.

i bend down and confrim that licking the sensor causes it to leak some liquid.  i note how this could work to humiliate people

especially since it talks in Japanese to tell me that it knows i'm a pervert.


then

as always


wake p

arrrgh!

argh!


blah!

arrrrhgghghghghth!


asdflkajsd;lfkjas;ldkgja;lsjga;ls!


argh!

blarrrrrrghthghghghahtaltkhal;kghf;lakdf;lakdshf!


GRARRRARRTTH!

(sorry, just had to shout at things.  shouting over.  feel betters. i will porn it up soon as i can, thanks for sticking around. :-P)

wah wah wah!

i know i have emails i need to respond to

i know i have new Mr. Anonymous-es to convert to understanding that i don't care who you really are, i just want you to converse in the comments like everyone else.  we're all accepted here, you know?

i have so much work stuff that i feel drown-y sometimes.  then i take a nap and everything seems way way better


and then

those naps

there's this totally kinky thing i've been thinking, during the quiet happy time where you wake up, but the alarm is all "you've got 20 minutes, bitch," and so you sit and wonder, and think happy things, and snuggle all warm and happy, and everything is right with the world?

then that fucking beeper beeps all over the place telling you to wake up and go work and earn money and make The Man happy.

:-/

but during that quiet happy time, i've come up with a quiet happy story, and i need to get it down, and i'm hopeing to do it this week.


thanks for sticking around!