that point when your brain just keeps chanting "you can cut that arm all night long"

sorry.

wow.

my brain is still awful, and it's not getting better.  just fucking terrible shit.

i did read the comment, and i'm so super sorry i made you worry/post that.  i am trying to be better, but i'm always horrible.

that isn't the sentence i thought it would be.  ok, doing this drunk was probably a mistake.  the last one was a super sober "time to eat dinner" thing.  this is me just whatevering.

this was nearly going to turn into another leftist screed.  but then i read the last one and stopped all that.

but seriously, if you're like "gay people are gross, so i'm just going to sit here and jack off to your lesbo-porn" maybe you need to cut that arm all night long.  i'll sit here and wait.  send me emails as it all drains out.  i'll send replies for your heirs to read.  we can do it together if you want.

ok, sorry.   again with the sorry.

i'm going on vacation tomorrow today.  so i'll be gone (not dead gone, just away from porn town gone) for a bit.

thanks everyone for being supportive for someone who just drags down that support all the time.  i hope therapy helps again.  like actual helps.  helps that make me not write 1am drunk posts about socialism and sadness.

i love you so so much.
;)