so
things are going pretty well. my new job is better than the old one, my new boss is super cool, my coworkers are cool too, my new apartment is way bigger and way nicer than my old one, things are generally all better.
it's colder. i don't like the cold so much.
but i'm starting to realize that i'm still super lonely, and starting to think that that's how it'll be forever. i don't know that there's an easy way to meet people who are into messed up stuff, and i don't know that i could meet someone who isn't.
so i'm kind of in this place that i feel like i should be more depressed than i am. i suspect the issue is that i'm taking so many drugs now, my brain can't be depressed. i don't know.
i'm rambling, but it's late, and i need to get up early tomorrow.
i definitely don't like getting up early.
