that one dream story. i'm just going to give up tomorrow and post it. i know it's not good. but i've sat on it for like a month, and it's not going to magically get better.
that new dream story that came up last night. just fucking do it, and get it out. sure, no one is going to get or care about the ear wax part. that's weird, sammy. you're weird. but if you do it, it's at least done and over.
the rest of everything: i'm in a bad place right now. i know that. i do appreciate people being supportive, but a lot of times that support isn't helpful. that sounds crazy. i'm so sorry about this. i just don't know how to make my emotions make sense to other people when they do something. i know i have dumb emotions that do stupid things. i know that that doesn't make sense to people. i'm just trying the best i can.
if you sent me a message recently, i'm going to try to get to it tomorrow. animal planet does this puppy bowl thing, and i am far less triggered when i have puppies to watch. they are cute and stumbley and cute. i wish i could be cute and cute.
so, again, sorry for being dumb. i think i can pull together enough sanity for a bit. sorry that my brain isn't great. i wish i could be someone who was confident and posted everyday with shit.
sorry i suck.
thanks for sticking with me.
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