i feel really bad that i haven't posted anything recently, or put up some porn for people, or whatever.
but...
i think my brain isn't broken anymore?
like, i look at the regular porn i subscribe to, and i get aroused, and my hand takes a little trip (you know), and things work out, and then i go to sleep, and wake up early the next day ready to do math to things that i'm paid to math at.
so i'm super super sorry i've been lazy a lot recently
and i do have dream things i'd like to post
but maybe i should just admit that i'm on hiatus, and that my brain isn't up to the blogging thing now.
that makes me kind of sad, because a lot of you were super helpful, and calm, and caring, and made me feel better when i posted things. Mr. Christopher of the Leather Crafter stuff, you're totally up on the list.
Mr. Veterinarian, who i said i would sent pictures to (but never ended up doing), you're totally there too.
if you sent me stuff, and were offended that i didn't respond, please don't be angry. my brain works differently now, and i think it's for the best of everyone.
ok, deep breath.
"sammy, will you never post again?"
no, that'd be silly. i just want to let everyone know that i'm admitting that i'm a failure at bloging, so let's just let it be a random thing, ok?
"but, but...i lovve you!"
no you don't. stop sending me those emails.
so, let's all be kinks, and be cool, ok?
OK!
Hey sammy... Glad to know you appreciate the support! It's very sweet, and I'm touched.
ReplyDeleteYou know what? I'm happy to know there are dirty-minded (real) girls in the world such as yourself. That you share that part of yourself with us. And although you sometimes do battle with your brain, I hope you know you do have friends out here who care for you, and hope you are doing well. In the real world! Whatever you can handle doing blog-wise, whatever you want to share - we're here when you feel up to it... It's okay.
In my book you are a unicorn: a kind of beautiful, mythical creature that does really exist. A pretty girl with a deliciously dirty mind. Magical, rare and special.
Pu-waah! (say it out-loud, i'm sure it makes more sense that way)
Deleteas for me, i'm doing way way better (most days). it's a good way to be. :)
but really, you don't take the credit you deserve. i was here, broken and kind of dying inside, and you were all "oh, that's my work, i'm glad you like it" and "if you want, i can make you stuffs" and "you'd be cute to have as a model, so let me know if you'd be up for it."
i know it sounds dumb, but it's like treating me as a real person, and not just some internet whore.
really. if i ever have more than like an hour layover in los angeles, i'm going to get a cab, find you, and make you have a hug for exactly the amount of time i have in la that doesn't involve cab rides to and from the airport.
unless you don't live in la, but instead san francisco. i'm...kind of bad with remembering where people are.
you are in california, right?
us?
earth?
whatever. you deserve super hugs!
hugs!
You're not a failure.
ReplyDeleteHaving a blog takes a LOT of work. My fiance has a blog and loves the work, but it takes a lot.
A lot of effort, focus, and work.
Sometimes, you just want to take a break and leave it alone.
Don't be discouraged. You're still awesome in my book.
break taken. i'm not saying i'm up to a full time thing or anything like that, but i cleared out the crappy brain bit, and doing better. thanks for sticking around!
DeleteYou can't be too bad at blogging, because despite taking my own multi-month hiatus and dropping off the face of the earth mostly for mental health reasons, I stop here as soon as I'm back. Things can be slow, but you're still the awesome Sammy we all come here to listen to anyways.
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