not dead

sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry!

a) i've had lots of work crap that has totally eaten up a lot of what was free time.

b) i've sorted out a lot of brain issues that were fucking with me.  yay less fucked up brain!

c)  so

like a lot of things.  assorted public rape things.  that fucked up dude in cleveland.  a variety of things that sound great in my half-awake fantasies, but when they show up on the news, it's totally less cool.

i think that's a lot of why i've been hesitant to post.  like, my brain isn't so fucked up, and i read news stories, and i don't want people to go through the shit in the news

even if it is like 99% the same as the shit i dream up in the late night.

i guess i'm caught in the middle of reality and fantasy, and not sure how to get out.  i do have three (maybe four) dream things that i want to post, but this hesitancy is stopping me.

just

like


so people know, and shit.