i should post images at some point

so last time i mentioned that my hard drive with all my stuff crashed.  it turns out that sammy is better at backing things up than she thought. :)

i discovered a "misc videos" folder on my usb drive in the folder that had the handful of videos i knew i had backed up.  this new folder has the entire set of things i had on that disk.  i guess i didn't copy things correctly, so instead of going into the video folder, they went into a new one?

whatever.  things aren't as bad as i feared.


and then this morning i had another weird dream thing.  it took place in my apartment, but it wasn't my apartment.  the best description would be like a temple, like a mayan thing or something.  i say that because at the end of the hall, there was a really long staircase/pyramid thing going down to the street.

in any case, i'm there with (who i guess is) my Mistress.  She's leading me on a leash, as i walk on my hands and knees.  my hands are covered in mitts, but i can still bend my fingers.  my legs are covered in latex stockings, although they have steel inserts in the feet.  the inserts hold my feet so that they're pointed, but since i'm crawling, this isn't really a problem.

She brings me down to the end of the hall, and we're at the top of the staircase.  i see some ballet boots and shoes, and pick up the shoes and look up at my Mistress.  She responds with a "fine, you can wear them, but it's not like it's going to make a difference." i realize that's because the steel insert does the same thing, but i don't care, and slide the shoes on my feet.  i can't lace them up, since i can't use my fingers.

we start down the stairs, and i can see that there's a group assembling at the bottom.  i'm not sure what's going on, but with the calm tug of the leash, i know that things will be ok.

and then i wake up in a fairly happy mood.

because i have to wake up early tomorrow, so making a blog post at 12:30 is totally a good idea

for like the second time in a year, the hard drive with all my porn movies died.  last time, i was able to convince it to live long enough so i could copy most of it off to a new one, but this time, it looks like it's all dead.

fuck.

the scat stuff, the bondage stuff, the stuff that involves puppies that are so very cute.

gone, i think.

:(

and since the place that i used to get torrents from to get things is gone, i'm probably screwed on a lot of that.  i still have some stuff i wrote to dvds, but i'll have to find those again, since i mistakenly thought "oh, just buy a big hard drive, and put it all there, it'll be ok."

stupid computers

stupid shitty computers that suck at keeping my porn in a place where i can see it whenever i want to.

grumble.

i guess tomorrow i'm going to best buy to get another big hard drive, and i'll save anything new there, and then it'll break, and i'll be without things i thought i'd have forevers.

here's a crappy dream thing:

i had a dream last night that i was going on a trip, and so i zipped up a dog into my suitcase.  not a small dog, mind you.  like german shepherd big.

wtf?

here's the dream thing from friday night (it's better)

i'm at work, but it's not like real work.  it's some idealized "you're at work now, sammy" kind of place.  there's this new girl, or maybe she's not new, but she definitely doesn't actually work at the work i work at.

we're having some sort of meeting, but there aren't enough seats.  she tucks her legs up onto the couch (because that makes sense) and suggests i sit on the floor in front of her, so at least i have something to rest against.

she's taken off her shoes, and her legs are covered in wonderful grey cable knit tights.  they're super thick and bulky, but super cute.

we're having this meeting, and after some time, she stretches out, and wraps her right leg around my neck, pulling me close.  she tucks that foot under herself, and then lets the other one slide down my body.  i'm pretty sure legs aren't that long, but i feel her teasing at my pants, sliding in under my underwear.

it's the next day, and because in my dreams, i'm apparently in high school, i put a note on her desk that's like a valentine with a "do you like me, yes/no" thing on it.

jump forward to the end of the day, and my desk has two tiny envelopes and a book that i loaned out (to the new girl? i guess?).  the envelopes are thick, like they're overstuffed with stuff.  

i pick them up, and rush home, intending to read the notes there.

and then i wake up.

because there's this part of my brain that says share

go watch this video:

it's super cute, and not really super kinky, but kind of so, so like... something...

things to watch out for:

rolled up sock.  like she's wearing the sock, but all the top bit is rolled into a ring.  i totally did that when i was little, and said, "i'm robin", from batman, right?  i had a pair of green socks that i did that with a lot.  maybe that's a sign this sock thing is genetic?

panda hat.  no reason.  just a super cute panda hat.

can't sleep and OMGOMGOMG!

did you see Mr. Veterinarian's last piece of art?

it maybe stars a certain kinky sammy!

OMG!

i can't believe that he would really want to draw someone like me....i need to make sure he has good references for next time.


and maybe sort out a proper story for that picture....

i would love to be in that suit...to have that nose snuffling my snufflables... :-P

today was an unhappy day

i mean, having someone else fuck up my car totally sucks.  i think it's all ok, but being there going "you're fucking up my car!" is not a fun way to spend an evening.

ok

breathe.

happy thoughts

here's the "clean" version of the half-dream/half-daydream i've been having after waking up too early for my alarm:


i'm awake, but i have help.

first, they wrap me in like linen bandages.  legs individually, torso, maybe a bit of extra fun around the breasts, then down my arms, individually again, folding my hands into loose fists.

mummy sammy!

next, the leather.  they scoot me into leather pants, which somehow don't bunch up the linen?  dream magic is cool.  anyway, they end in foot-mittens.  or...i guess they're just leather tights? next up is the straight jacket.  arms in position, wrap around my tummy, locked in place.  also locked to the pants.

there's a bit of a hood, but nothing too harsh.

finally, a sleepsuit kind of over-thing.  it's a single piece that covers me from toe to head, compressing my legs together and holding my arms tightly to my torso.  there are appropriate holes where needed, but tightly covers me, and holds the leather second layer in place.  there are rings at my head and at my feet, and i know they're so i can be suspending in whatever position necessary.


and, unlike usually, this is where i wrap up in my sheets and pillows, and usually go back to sleep all happy and warm feeling.  :)

happy thoughts!